Why is he smiling

I guess everyone knoes I have this huge obsession over this guy call Jun Rui. I guess I'm still giving false hopes to myself that he likes me after this incident. I t all happens like this...

En Yu, my classmate, posted this video on Instagram. Jun Rui was holding on to the holiday homework. I guess En yu lost her holiday homework. -_- She had a meet-up with Jun Rui at the bus stop, like just the both of them. En Yu was saying enthusiastically to Jun Rui " Say hi to Rui  Ling!!". Jun Rui replies with a smile and walk way.

Hey guy!!! Can I ask you a question??? what does his smile represents sia. It's not the first time he laughs or smiles when my friends say my name. Like seriously, why are you smiling???
 I hope someone can answer that question)

I really hope I can get the exact answer from Google. Sadly, our technologies are not that advance. Hopefully, one day, I can ask Google whether Jun Rui likes me

The most stupid person in the world

If you think you are the most stupid person in the wrold, U R WRONG!!!

Yesterday, I scroll though the conversation between Jun Rui and I. Never did I know he rejected me on October . I thought he is someone that likes to give false hopes to girls. I guess I misunderstood him. He rejected me.

Yap, my feeling is the same colour as the words "He rejected me". Although I always wanted a rejection from him, I guess I still cant handle the pain or sadness. Everytime he send me a message, my world light up!!! Like what is he trying to tell me. However, the message I always hope he can send me is I like you too. I assume this can only happens after a million years, when I'm in my coffin lying. T_T


IT'S TIME TO MOVE ON . HE DON'T LIKE YOU

I'm back

Damm!! There is no wifi network when I'm stuck in Malaysia. I swear it's hell since there's no wifi. It's a tragic and awful experience in Malaysia so I dont wanna taco about it. I guess I will continue my blog, starting from today!!!!!

Likin Jun Rui

If you had read my previous post, you will know that I'm tryin to forget this guy. He's Jun Rui..

 I really don't know what to do to forget about him. The moment I pass by my classroom, I'll think about him. The time we joke in class, comparing our results, tumbling each others pencil cases,get angry at small and stupid things and many more. He will be in a different class as me next year. I really hope I can forget about him and move on. But I just cannot stop thinking about him!!  He continued to talk to me on Snapchat and Watsapp and he saved the streak yesterday after the hour glass appears. I really like him. Should I confess to him again and ask for a rejection?? 

I'm really scared about the future. What if he forgets me?? What if he likes other gurls in sec 3?? What if he treats me as a stranger!! I think the ans for these question is time.... 

Maybe my wish is to be in a relationship with him. I know it's impossible so it can only appear in my dream... 
I really like him. Should I really forget him juz LIddat??? 

SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO!!

Letter to my future self ( secondary 3)

Dear Rui Ling(15 years old);

Hai!!! Time flies so fast!!
I cant believe you are 15 years old! Do you still remember your 14 years old self?
The person that admires Jun Rui every single day. Today is the releasing of streaming results. He's in E4 and you are in E1. I should feel happy since I enter a class I like. Maybe he enters a class he likes too!!You are once so obsess over Jun Rui. Your wish was to take a pic with him but u didn't have the courage to ask. If you are reading this message and still friends with him, please take a picture with him!!! Does he like anyone?? If he likes anyone, you just gotta admit that he don't like u and forget him!! He don't deserve you!!
How's academics??? Are you able to cope with 9 subjects. I love Bio but do u still love that subject?? Is miss Wan Ting( the damm bias teacher) still our teacher?? Is miss Zhang still teaching you Chinese?? Are you still friends with Kai Yan, Jolene Lee, Shi Ying and Jolie? Are you happy in E1?? Do you think you will feel happier if you are in E4??  Do you enjoy being a secondary 3 student??
I hope you don't like anyone cause you should learn your lesson.
Liking a guy is pointless, worthless, useless, meaningless and hopeless
 I really hope Jun Rui likes you!!

WARNING: PLEASE DON'T BE A NERD JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE IN E1!!

WISHES: I hope you are doing well in your academics!  Don't be depress or upset if u face any difficulties!!  Muz stay happy!! Your 14-year-old self will always be at your side!! Your future will definitely be brighter than the sun!!!

Love,
14 years old Lee Rui Ling

An Instagram Post

OOPS!! I forgot to update my blog yesterdayoday so I decided to write the memorable thing that happen yesterday. Maybe just one is enough cause I'm a long winded person!!!

Last night, my friend posted a picture of me really high on Instagram. Her caption was tagging my crush and ask him to calm me down! Did I tell your guys I had a crush. If not, I'm juz goning to share a little info about him.

His Name is Jun Rui and live in a condominium near my house. Both of us are in the same Co-Curricular activity and he sits behind me during class. He's really kind and caring towards girls. I'm just jealous of his future wife or love, Anyway, he doesn't like me so... IT'S THE TRUTH AND THE TRUTH HURTS!!!

Let's continue! I was the first person to saw that Instagram post !! I began to be red with fury and spam her tons of sentences and one of them was I WILL FORGET HIM DURING THE HOLIDAYS!! Maybe I wasn't that lucky. He saw the comments I left after I posted that comment for 1 second. He began to Snapchat message me and ask me whether it's true! I really don't know how to respond as I had a feeling that he may like me. He always talks to me on Snapchat and not other girls. He was really jealous and stare at me when I starts to talk to my table mate whom is a guy. I didn't know what to ans .I just randomly input a sticker saying Yes!!! He empty arrow me. I really don't know what to tell him. I was just angry at that moment. I dont want to forget him. Maybe everything is too late.

THE TRUTH IS I LIKE U JUN RUI! I'LL NEVER WANT TO FORGET ABOUT YOU!!

Hving fun at Andre's house

Hello everyone. Today is the start of November! WOOT WOOT!!

Today is a really enjoyable day! Today was the secret session and our close friends would gather at Andre's house. The people that came to Andres are En Yu, Jolene, Schuyler, Jun Rui, Qi Siang and ME!!! Andre's is really rich as hes stays in terrace house. or your infomation, The cost of terrace house in Singapore costs a bomb. Lots of activities happened at his house so I'm just going to share some activities that etched to my mind. 

One of the activities wasis MY LUNCH. We ordered pizza for lunch!1 Domino's pizza is really awesome! I strongly recommend people to buy as it is affordable  and delicious. As you can see, there are 7 people including Andrre. However, only 6 people consume the pizza. The person that didn't consume the pizza was Jun Rui. He told us he had eaten lunch with his family earlier so he don't feel like eating anymore. Before we knew this truth, the 5 people began asking him to eat at least a slice of pizza. When I ask him to consume a slice of pizza, he Started smiling. Um... Can someone tell me why is he smiling when I ask him and not smiling when others ask him?? I'm really curious!

 

The second activity was Table Tennis. One of the room in Andre's house was sports room and it has a table tennis table. Jelly Jealous!!!1 The 3 people decided to play Wii at the living room. It's kind of boring to watch people playing video games so the 4 of us decided to play table tennis to burn some fats. Especially after the large amount of calories consume during lunch time. Jun Rui, Andre, En Yu and I went to the sport room located on the second floor. The room is really spacious!!! It has a table tennis table and a hoop to train his basketball, I think. Usually, it's suppose to be the girls in a team and the guys in another team. However, En Yu decided to ship Jun Rui and I and put us together. I was really awestruck by my best friend behaviour. We started to have a 2 vs 2 table tennis match!! During the match, En Yu fished out his phone and searched the marriage pledge. Seriously, everyone here is only 14 and Jun Rui doesn't like me! When Jolene sais out the marriage pledge, Jun Rui was laughing like crazy.  His face  blushed red and hes trying to bury his face in his hands. On the other side, I'm giving thst pissed off look to En yu. Like seiously,  are you done with your crap!! After the crap and joking, we decided ro be serious and continue the match. However, Juun Rui continue laughing whenever En Yu tried to ship us. I'm really speechless

 

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHY DOES GUYS LAUGH WHEN HIS FRIENDS MENTION YOUR NAME OR TRIED TO CARE FOR HIM. I REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND!!!!